Putting health and family first

I have been MIA for a few weeks now.  I was faced with medical issues and a family crisis that I had to put first.  It would have been selfish of me to not give my full attention to each matter.  During these past few weeks I was able to address certain health issues that I had been keeping at bay by doing the bare minimum.  I think I let myself over think each issue to the point I assumed it would all turn out negative.  I put my big girl pants on and faced each problem head on.  It wasn’t easy but I learned that not all issues have to end badly.  In the end, I took the steps needed to better my overall health.  I might not be able to cure some of my health issues like Type 1 diabetes, epilepsy, gastroparesis, or anxiety/depression/maniac bipolar, but I can follow my doctor’s orders, take my medicine, and stay positive.  I learned my lesson and think I am overall better for it.  Don’t let the negative thoughts overtake your thinking.  If you start feel like your world is crashing, just take a moment and BREATH, then stay focused on positivity.

In these past few weeks I have had some ups and downs.  My grandmother, who is 91, was struggling with back pain that the doctors couldn’t pinpoint what was causing it.  The doctors finally realized what was causing her this immense amount of pain.  She has a fractured vertebra that can only be healed overtime.  Due to her age this was her only option.  She is being made comfortable and looked after 24/7 where she stays.  I am happy that the doctors where able to locate the problem and she is recovering one day at a time.

On the positive side, my son celebrated his birthday, April 2nd.  He is now 14 and is such a kind, intelligent, and funny teenager.  He is going through his growth spurt and keeps getting taller than me everyday.  Some other things I have done over these past weeks were all happy times.  I spent Easter with my family (mom & dad), my sister, niece, and son.  It was a special time.  I even did some dancing on the Wii, which was probably more funny than anything.  My sister, niece (she is 6 yrs old), my son and myself went the local zoo.  Since I come from a small family, I cherish every moment I have with everyone, it is even more special when I am not sick or in the hospital and can actually participate.  I could go on and on but I will save it for another time.

The dust is now settling and I finally have the time to catch up with my emails, blog, and interviews.  I don’t want you guys to think I left you hanging.  I have an interview with a great blogger at https://insilencewesuffer.wordpress.com, that I plan to post this coming Friday.

I have so much to catch up on that if anyone wants to email me so I don’t miss a previous email then please do.  Also, I still am looking for more bloggers to do interviews or guest posts.  Never hesitate to email me at jenmotivates12@gmail.com.  Just make sure to put something in the subject line so it stands out!

Much love

XOXO-Jen

 

 

Yes or No

Is the word today ‘yes’ or ‘no’

Today was the day that ‘yes’ had overruled her simple ‘no’

‘Yes,’ ‘Yes,’ ‘Yes,’ had become second nature to them

‘No,’ was a rarely spoken word  around those ‘Yes’ characters

The word ‘yes’ had manipulated their ability to say ‘no’ and end

the continued day in and day out cycle

‘Yes’ had so eloquently taken over their mind that ‘yes’ had controlled

even their hand to mouth movement

Dragging them unknowingly further from reality into a spiral

vortex taking the few unfortunate to where they no longer could grab

a hold of the ladder that would bring them back to the real

world of reality again

As they fall deeper into the claws’,  that one word, ‘yes’ was easily

visible as the root of this vicious cycle

As her body yearned to say ‘yes’ she stayed strong

Now the dilemma of how the ‘no’  might change the night

However, she had learned that saying ‘yes’ over and over about

killed her along the way

Her ‘no’ was the only one

The outlandish and harsh attacks had they lost their sense of reality by

saying  ‘yes’ and caused them to outcast the only ‘no’ but she kept her

clear head and knew she did the right thing

She now enjoys the beauty of her soul from learning to say ‘no’

Never let ‘no’ question your decisions because the ‘yes’ will only be

temporary as the ‘no’ might make you feel like a goody two-shoes

but you will be able to enjoy the presence of real beauty and not lost in this

temporary world of false motivations making you feel the

laughter with silent sorrow from the ‘no’ crowd

while the ‘yes’ crowd is laughing beyond control not understanding

that the laughing is not with them but at them

When all is said and done the ones who say ‘no’ will win in the long run

Take this from the person writing this poem

Being on the brink of death multiple times eventually will bring a

dynamite kick in the pants

Listen from the words of someone who has experienced both sides

of the ‘yes’ and ‘no.’

By: Jen B.

XOXO

Hope you all enjoyed this poem. It had been stirring at my heart strings to write it.

It still exists even if not seen!

As a child you are always told that your body was for you and to speak up if any adult ever hurts you through physical,verbal, or your no no zones.

When your a child mommy and daddy are the boo boo fixers and will be by your side when you have a tummy ache or just don’t feel good.

Sometimes you even got to play hooky from school.

Oh, how times do change as we became adults.

Some of us now face an even different response to our health diagnosis.

My experience has baffled me to say the least!

We have been shamed of our health issues, reaching points in our life where we no longer had supporters on our team making us the SOUL MEMBER of this dream team fighting a battle that others refused to listen, try to understand, hell couldn’t even show empathy.

To the it was just words and we were the cause of feeling this way. I even battle multiple medical issues, but I have always dealt with the daily understanding of MENTAL HEALTH ILLNESSES, which continues to be stigmatized worldwide!

When will the masses start admitting that these debilitating (for many)problems can be life altering and begin seeing how some of these diagnosis’ are minor to major. Some lives are beyond recognition because  of the lifestyle changes they must implement.

Mental illness disagreements has been ongoing between the non believers and believers for years. Just because it can’t be seen by you (a non-doctor) doesn’t make it disappear.

The entire world needs to STOP being insensitive to the cause and raise for awareness because multiple people of the population, battle some form of a mental health disorder.

Along with my other forms of medical diagnosis’, I have no problem admitting I suffer from anxiety, ADD, sleep disorder,depression,and lastly bi-polar disorder.

GUESS WHAT? I will not be ashamed not let a single person tell me, “It’s all in your head.”

Lastly, just because it can’t be seen doesn’t change a thing. Certain types of cancer can’t be seen on the outside of someone’s body but it still exists.

I hope this sound off (which wasn’t meaning to) has helped another or brought awareness to someone.

I’m really pumped to hear the community’s thought on this post. Never be concerned about being the real you on here. I will say this flowed straight from heart and soul!

XOXO-Jen

Needed advice/help/suggestion/etc.

I wanted to say that I am determined to create an ebook by the summer. I really want to involve the blogger/readers/&writers community.

I will catch up soon with the quote challenge.

Back to writing an ebook and making money. 

1. My first question is what would make you read a particular ebook?
2. What genre is your favorite?
3. What do you think the length should be?
4. If you like short stories, then why do you prefer these.
5. This is my idea. Doing by decades starting with the 70’s and have 3-5 short stories, 3 poems and pictures. This would be each decade with closer observation on the 2000’s.

I really need your all guidance. Thank you kindly!

XOXO-Jen

3 quotes 3 days

I was nominated by a great blogger for this challenge.  It’s 3 quotes in 3 days. Before my quote, I want to thank the blogger who nominated me.
Her blog is http://www.gettingthroughanxiety.wordpress.com
She writes an outstanding blog along with posts that are from the heart, soul, & beneficial to the reader. Not only are her blog posts wonderful to read, she also supports the blogging community. I hope to do an interview with her soon.
My quote for today is my favorite quote. It is a quote reminding yourself to stay true to themselves.
“You were born an original, don’t die a COPY.”

That is my first quote for the first day but it’s a challenge too. I hope the blogs I nominate to participate each day will join the challenge.
Here are the rules:
1. 3 quotes in 3 days
2. Thank the person who nominates you
3. Nominate 3 blogs each day of the 3 days to participate in the challenge

Here are my nominees:
1. Https://wordsandnotion.wordpress.com
2. Https://tessacandoit.com
3. Https://sarahsatticoftreasures.com

I hope I got all this right.

If you could remove one obstacle from your life what would it be?

If you could pick just one thing that is holding you back and remove it from you current situation what might that be? This is the question I asked myself (as the title says).  While thinking of the answer I began wondering of the many things I might would change in my life but at what cost?

Here is the dilemma, by removing one obstacle what would I be changing and could this affect my future. We all think that if we had more money, or different living situations, etc. things would be better.  However, would it really be or would it bring more challenges in our life? With that said, I feel that I am where I am at for a reason.  Yes, I would love to be healthy, have more money, drive a fancy car and so on.  This is just materialistic besides the health.

Even when we look at others and think they have everything, behind close doors I am sure there is something they wish they could change.  I sometimes think what life would be like if I didn’t have all the health issues I deal with but my health is what inspired me to create my blog.  I use my health problems as a platform for speaking to others.  I want each and every person to know that the best thing to do when dealing with a health crisis is to stay positive and know that things could be worse.  I don’t know if that is the best way of putting things but this is how I look at it.

I feel God has presented these obstacles in my life for a reason and he has a plan for me.  I always look at the saying, “ God gives his toughest challenges to his strongest warriors.”  

Lastly, I would love to hear your opinions and thoughts on this question and how you might answer it.  Please feel free to speak freely and honest.  I want to thank all my readers/followers and bloggers community for reading this and as always would love to hear your comments.

XOXO-Jen  

How are you limiting yourself?

I have an app on my Ipad that is called Brainsparker and it gives you simple questions, quotes, ideas, and pictures to give you a boost for your writing.  I have a wondrous list of favorites with this app that has sparked my writing creativity for blog posts! The title of this post is just one of many I decided to start with.

I feel that I haven’t delivered properly on my blog for my readers/followers/bloggers community and I need to gain your trust again that I will be more active.  I also need to prove this with results through my blog.

Back to the title of this post, how are you limiting yourself?  As I answer this question, I challenge each one of you to ask yourself this same question. Maybe, you are willing to take this journey with me on the multiple posts coming with titles like this or pictures and even quotes.

I have been limiting myself due mainly to procrastination.  I have always had this problem because I let clutter fill up my mind and trying to get it organized is a task in itself.  Not only has this been limiting, I have also had so many doctor appointments within the last few weeks that even though they have turned out positive I let myself worry myself into a tailspin of unneeded what-ifs.

Now comes the question about what my plan is to overcome this issue and stop letting this jeopardize my writing for my blog and my goals of writing a book, doing the interviews I promised, along with the blog reviews of all these amazing blogs that deserve the feedback.  

I have been focused on decluttering my mind.  I have taken steps by devoting each room of my home and making each room more organized.  I have created a nook with all my writing materials along with a new chromebook to work off of.  I have been working on letting go of unneeded and unused things to donate to Goodwill. This has provided me additional space to properly place pieces that I currently need.  I also have finally reorganized my kitchen, bathroom, and bedroom.

Another big issue I am tackling is getting all my doctor’s appointments, medicine, and anything health related placed in the needed places, which has made things extremely less stressful.  It has made everything simpler keeping track of it all.

Lastly, has been the hardest of all.  This is my continue battle with procrastination.  Dealing with this is something I have to address within myself.  I continue to tell my inner-self that I must only tackle one task at a time.  For me this is extremely hard to conquer.  I have a long way to go but I am trying one day at a time.  I have grasped the understanding that this can’t be done overnight but with willingness, being persistent and devoted I can achieve these goals that are limiting me.

I would love to hear your comments on this post.  I am open to any suggestions and all advice will be greatly appreciated.  I want to thank you for taking the time to read this and I look forward to your responses.

XOXO-Jen   

Happy Birthday

Just want to touch base with everyone. I’ve been very busy and not been able to post much. I’ve had so many doctors appointments but they have all turned out good.

Today, February 3rd, is my birthday and I’m now 35 years old. Don’t mean to toot my own horn but this a big milestone for me. With all my health issues, some would say I’m lucky to be alive. I never thought I’d make it to this point but by the grace of God and changing my life around I am!

I am so thankful for this day. I’m thankful for all of my readers/followers/and blogger community, my family, my fiancé, friends, and doctors in my life. I was not looking forward to this milestone but realized how much I have in my life.

XOXO-Jen